On Fire

My brillant star went out
Extinguished with such force
Fire raged through my world
I now stand here
On fire
The flames obstructing my view
I see only ruin
The extreme heat is overwhelming
I can only feel pain
Horrific screams piercing my ears
Screams of pain
Screams of sorrow
Screams for relief
Can one survive?
Not without massive scar tissue
If my star were still here
I would not be standing here
On fire

sjj 1/17/2009

2009

The New Year

Another Year has begun

But you are not here

Another year to magnify the loss

Reaching titanic proportions in the end

Another year of scar tissue

Holding back the pain, preventing self destruction

Another year of tears

Struggling from being drowned by the sorrow

Another year of not knowing why

Trying to understand you'll never return

Another year of wearing this mask

Knowing the rest of the world is cold

Another year to survive

Hoping to honor our life we had

sjj 1/2/2009