Life's a tragedy

If we could only forget those that are no longer with us, it would be so much easier. But I find that memories are continually haunting me...holding me captive in this dark world. I find that I am constantly thinking of Kayla. I think of her EVERY waking hour. These past few days I find Sheila in those thoughts as well. I will never understand their deaths. I find that I have been reduced to an unrecognizable entity. I want to be so much more than I am. I don't want to be this crippled mess anymore. Sadly, I can't escape the pain, guilt, regret, insecurities, anger, etc. Everywhere I turn, they are waiting around the corner for me. I will be haunted as long as I live.

My Immortal - Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face

It haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice

It chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me