"You need to move on"

This is a very heavy statement and can impose an unattainable goal. No matter how hard I try, I keep seeing this goal move farther and farther away. I work extremely hard to take in all that I have, to see how fortunate I truly am. I'm trying to soar above the wreckage that has crippled me. But the pain can't be denied. It is constantly pushing me back and ripping pieces of me away. The injuries from this pain cripples me even more. And then I can see my goal move closer to the horizon. What happens when I can no longer see my goal? The will to keep moving forward will no longer be there. As I look back from where I've traveled, I will see that I have laid down additional wreckage on top of what was already there. Now my family will have to try and recover from what I left behind. It will then be realized that I will never move on and the pain will always tear me apart. The only thing left to do is crash into my reality and succumb to the pain.