Happy Birthday Kayla

Tomorrow would have been Kayla's 18th birthday. The day she would be an adult and we could take our relationship to the next level. I will never know that joy. I can literally feel the pain eat away at my soul. I don't know how I can survive this...I don't want to be a survivor. My life will always be incomplete. Life is so extremely painful that the joy is barely noticeable.

Birthday Blues

The clock ticks closer
To mark the hour
You entered this world
The world wanted you to stay
You didn’t feel the same
So many memories of love
That has now been pushed out the door
Can’t understand what happened
Can’t accept the void
Your legacy will live on
Longer than you could
The joy of your birth
Is now the pain
Forever in my heart
You will always remain young
I will continue to age
One more day
One more year
One more chance
That is my wish
Fruitless desires
Eating away at my soul

sjj 8/31/2006